Undone

Everyone has struggles in their lives and one of my biggest struggles was growing up without a dad. My parents divorced when I was two so I never had a relationship with my dad. When I was younger it never really fazed me to think about not having a dad around, but in the last couple of years it has. There were times I would lie in bed and cry because all I longed for was a father. I saw friends with their dads and I wished I had one. When I went to CHIC, I attended to a workshop about growing up without a father and there was also a woman speaker that talked about how God has helped her with her relationship with her dad. Through this experience, I realized that God is my father. On that trip, God replaced that
hole, he replaced my earthly father and became my dad and He is a far more better Father than any other. Sometimes I still struggle with not having an earthly father, but I always know that God is my Father and I look at the blessings He has given me, such as the family I have now. I have learned to lean on the Lord in this situation. I had to write a sonnet senior year for my english class.
I ended up writing about my dad and our relationship. This is how the poem goes, it is called His Love.

Like a distant relative visiting,
Both can sense the awkwardness between two,
The conversations as thin as a string,
Memories never old, not even new.
The bond between two that was never made
Can hurt in more ways than she can explain.
The thought of having a father can fade
As tears flood down like a grey sky and rain.
Knowing that he will never change his way,
That he may never feel her hurt or pain,
She’s still strong knowing God is here to stay,
Leaning on the Lord like a walking cane.
His love is greater than the world can give,
Heaven gave her another chance to live.

The poem summed up means what I said earlier about God being my Father. CHIC was an amazing experience and helped me grow in Christ. I discovered that Christ is my Daddy and I am his little girl who He loves with all his heart and is ready to embrace me.

–Chelsea

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